Trying to Keep the Christmas Spirit

Today I am trying to keep my head held high and remember the Christmas Spirit, but it is hard.

I know how lucky I am that I am with my girls and not away from them and I know how blessed I am to have people that care about the kids.

I am lonely, exhausted, and sad. Sad that a person that helped create these beautiful little girls, can not call or come see them when they need him and want him. I am sad that a marriage is over. I am exhausted with being the only parent at home and having to do it all and remember it all. I am sad that I don't have more patience with the kids at night when they and I are all cranky.

I am sad that no one calls me at home at night or even on the weekends. That I have to call everyone. Why is that?

What did I do?