Are their Ear Infections Really Gone?

I am starting to wonder if Bay and Kenzie are getting better? Bay's cough is better but she is still very cranky. Kenzie's cough is worse and is still pulling at her ears. They have been on the amoxicillan for a week now. I am giving it one more day, as the peds office said yesterday....If they are not better in the am tomorrow we are going back.

I wish I knew for sure if Bay is just reacting to all the stress in the house and Jay not being around or if it is truly just that she is tired and not feeling well.

Is There a Lawyer in the Family?

There are days that I wish I had a lawyer in my family that can give me advice and guide me down this wicked ride I am about to go on. I know now in my heart that I am the one that wants it to work, therefore I am the one that is trying. If he truly wanted it to work, he would stay home and try.

Our children deserve better.

I have NO idea how in the world I am going to do this, but I know that it has to be done. No matter how much it hurts and how hard it is. I know that I have prayed alot about it and this is the answer.

I am scared but I can do this, and I will do this for my children.

Good Mommy Award

For the past 2 weeks Bailey and Kenzie have had colds. Bailey has been so cranky the past 4 days that I just knew something was not right. Kenzie also had started waking up in the middle of the night again.

So, yesterday I take them to the doctor. Guess what? Both of them have double ear infections.

Yesterday I felt so smart and like the best Mom in the world because I realized it before they got too sick!!!!

Yeah me!!!!

Randomness

Today I am having many, many random thoughts.

• I am very thankful Jay has found another job, even though it is alot less money, it is a job and he really likes it.
• I am very thankful that I have a job that I truly love.
• I am very thankful that we have 3 beautiful girls.
• I look forward to seeing what President Obama will help America acheive.
• I am seeking answers to important questions in my life and am using guidance from God to help.
• I want to be a better Mother our girls. I want to develop more patience and have more actual time to spend with them and do things.
• I want to change things and make a difference.
• Effective time management skills outside of the workplace would be a very good idea..
• A larger home that allows everyone the privacy and space they need from time to time.

Crazy, random things.

Monday, Monday Go Away!!!!

Some days it does not matter what you do or say. The fact that you are trying to be helpful can be mis-understood.

I have a backbone and I will be damned if I am going to sit back and take anyone else's mess. If I am wrong, then I am wrong. If I am doing something to be helpful to get an issue resolved or a question answered then deal with it.

Happy 2009!

Obama Is Almost Here

Everyone is entitled to believe what they want to believe. I personally voted for Obama and I like him. I like to listen to him speak. He has brought hope and something for young Black American males....Look what you can accomplish if you stay in school and go to college and focus on the right path!!! Look how many elderly white Americans told the press they were voting for him! That says something?

Is he the answer to everything? Who knows? Will he fix everything? Maybe or maybe not? But does has any President been able to fix EVERYTHING?

I plan to see what happens before I start critizing him! I am looking forward to all the ceremonies etc. This is a part of our history.

Bailey and the Stairs!!!!

I can tell that our sweet little Bailey Ann will be our child that breaks a bone!!! Yester we were at the neighbors and Bailey was going up the stairs to play with her son. She fell from the top all the way down...I guess more like TUMBLED. She scared the crap out of us. So far the only thing that looks bad is her eye. It has a nice mark under it and it will be a shiner soon!!!!

Feeling Like It Will Not End

Everyone comes to a point in their lives where they feel like they have hit rock bottom right? I think for me this week has been it.

Things were already tight money wise with his hours being cut, but this first week of him being laid off has been horrible on many levels. Being laid off was not his fault, but choosing to be lazy vs. filing for unemployment earlier when he could have gotten partial benefits, not actively looking for a new job, not following up on job leads, and not obtaining his GED, are all his fault. Playing that is what he had been doing. Finally Friday he wants to do his resume? I asked him 3 weeks ago did he want me to help him and the response was NO, I do not need one. So he had to do it on his own. He did apply for jobs and started working yesterday. Not sure if it will last but he is working.....$3.25 less an hour plus all the money he will put out in gas going to different job sites.

My low came as I applied for Food Stamps and WIC. When I filed all his unemployment stuff online and when I went to my church and asked for help with food.

Yes, there are many across the US that are affected by the economy....But how do you explain to a 3 yr old that you can not get McDonalds dollar menu even though she has been good. How do you stop an 8 yr from fretting about the cost of things when her birthday is right around the corner? Why each year around her birthday does all the crap hit the fan and you are not able to do what you need to do.

Life Changes. 2009 is the year for it. It will be the year that I free myself from those ties that bind me to.

Kenzie's After Church Yesterday

Yesterday was our first Sunday back at church in a while. We all needed to go back. Evidently Kenzie had a great time because all the way home from church yesterday she was in the back seat just making all kinds of baby noises. It was like she had some VERY important things to say. Amber, Bailey, and I were cracking up because if anyone else tried to say something she just got louder and louder.

I do know that the Youth Pastor's daughter was crying alot because she is going through separation anixety so maybe that had something to do with it!!!

Bailey Wants a Scary Tattoo!!!

On our commute home everyday we drive by a Tattoo Shop. The window of the shop if very large and is has an image of a dragon and a bunch of swirly things. It is very pretty, but the dragon could be scary to a child. The first time she noticed it she screamed and said the window scared her. Not the story anymore!!!!

Our good friend Ashley just recenly got another tattoo of music notes. She showed it to the girls and it is very pretty. Bailey tells her she wants to get a pretty tattoo also! We both say NO, you have to be 18 to get one. the conversation ends for that day.

Fast forward a few days on the way home from the sitters. She says. " Mommy I like the scary tattoo now. I want to get a scary tattoo" I say..."No you can't get a tattoo until you are 18, you have to be an adult." Bay says " I will get one when I am EIGHT years OLD!!!

Jay Now Officially Job Hunting

The economy has now fully kick my family in the ass. How much can we be tested in our lives? Or is it that we truly have that much bad luck in our lives?

Jay got the official notice today that he is laid off.

I am terrified!

My Day At Patient First

Wow! Saturday was an intersting day!

I have done something to my right arm. I know it is from balancing the baby carrier with the baby in it on my arm. It happened about a month and half ago. I was hoping that it would heal with the assistance of ibuprofen and a brace on my elbow. Alas, it did not so Saturday I decided to go to Patient First. I also wanted a blood pressure check because I had taken my BP at Wal-Mart last week and it was very high.

Not too bad of a wait at Patient First (which is an urgent care facility) I went back, my BP was 156/110 when they took it the first time, 160/111 the second time. So I had my first EKG and a round of chest X-rays. All of those looked fine.

I am now on BP meds again. They also did give me some strong anti-inflammatory drugs for my arm and a referral to an ortho doc.

I am hoping that this latest round gives hubby a clue that ummmm...Things that are going on are not good for my health so he needs to step up his roll in a big way!!!!

Searching for Other Bloggers!!!!

There has to be an easier way to find other blogs other than hitting next?????? Any ideas?

Our First 2009 Task To Get More Organized

Yesterday we cleaned out our shed. I am married to a pack rat!!!! It was not intentional that we were going to clean it out. I went out there with the intention of just getting the Christmas boxes out....Then realized I could not get to them because Jay had put all his Airsoft stuff in front of them. So we spent a while go through everything in the shed!!!

We now have a beautiful, organized shed that we can actually put some more things in!!!! YEAH!!!!