Knowing and Doing

Knowing that it is over and doing something to resolve the fact that it is over are two extremely hard steps to take.

I believe in love and I believe in vows. But when the other person strays from the vows it is very hard to understand why and be forgiving. Some things are forgivable some things just are not.

And when you know its over, its over. He needs to grow up. At 32 you should be able to provide for your family, have goals, and stop acting like a teenager. Especially when you have 3 little ones and a wife that is very near the edge.

So, my Mom was right all along. She never wanted us to get married. This is why she got so upset each time we annouced a pregnancy, because her Mommy flags were all going nuts.

I am very thankful that I have good friends that love me and that are very supportive of me.

I just want to be in a happy place. The girls and I have to move out. I have to be able to pay everything since he is not working.

I need to win part of the lottery or something.

I know that I am a strong woman and that God will guide me through. I just hate that I am even going to have to do this and take these steps. But ultimately I have to protect myself and my children right?